aluminumbones

that make me feel better.
knowing that other people are out there to help me.
being under a blanket
not doing shit.

im gonna work out in a little bit while i clean.
but first im going to finish this tea.
the bitter, burning taste wont go away.
it really wont.
ive brushed my teeth and everything
its coating the back of my throat.

im going to stick to 2,4,6,8 for a little bit. maybe 2 to 3 sessions.
and im going to stay away from fasting for at least a month.
ill do Day Fasts. but no longer than that.

im not chancing another day like this.

my favorite thing is planning out my meals.
really. i have an obsession with counting and restricting the calories i eat.
so ill plan for tomorrow tonight.
im sure that'll cheer me up even more.

of fast.

hope everyone is doing alright?

 

off to school soon

i might post some thinspo before i go.

i just want all the fat gone.

i feel like it multiplies..even when im fasting.

my ass is just lard.

ugh.

i wonder how many days i need to fast to lose 10 lbs.

im fasting again today.

thats about it..

ha. not much to say really

fast starts today.

i guess ill get back on tomorrow and tell of my adventures
because im getting shipped off to my dads

my mom cant handle me i guess?
background info: she's looney. she thinks im the scum of the earth blah blah blah. i dont get it.

but anyway.

today is a new day
im excited
the coffee is delicious
and
im ready to shrink

good luck to everyone who is doing this with me :)
let me know how you did if you'd like

( inspire me up some thinspo! )

im so fickle.

im afraid i won't have a good oppertunity to fast later this week
so to be on the safe side im going to fast tomorrow with some people instead of 600 cals like originally planned.

i think people should fast with me :)

i really want to waste away.
really really want to just be so thin people can't help but stare.
i want my boyfriend to be able to pick me up with his pinky.

:(

soon.
i feel my will power growing.
its odd.
ive never felt so motivated, and strong

why hello.
it just sort of happened without planning.
im doing the 2,4,6,8
with a day of fasting between 8 and the next 2.

today is 400.
i lost a pound since yesterday.

ham sandwhich and a coffee thing.

im chugging green tea, dont know if its helping.

i have an ass of homework today so it should help me from eating anymore.

time to work out.

time to diet, restrict..

time to work out some more.

time to fade away.

today ive had a little less then 200 calories.

im not even hungry.
i have no appetite because of my damned depression.

im going to work out until i black out.

"i don't care if it hurts

i want to have control

i want a perfect body

i want a perfect soul."

i lost a lb again. i thought for sure i wouldnt because of how much i ate with my mom. blehh.
but good news is that when i have big meals like that i usually just keep going ang going goingoing....
but i didnt
even when we were shopping in the evening and my mom said she was hungry again
it was like and open invitation to have anything i wanted to eat
and i just shrugged and said i was still full from dinner. even though on the inside i was screaming "I HAVE THE MUNCHIES!!"
my worst time is always around 12 so when i started craving food i took two of those gtpills and drank some tea.
and then went to bed around 1. 
successfully NOT eating.

hm..
im fasting today and it should be extremely easy
1)because i have two new motivations and one old one ::im trying out for a national singing contest thats recorded on tv so i want to look GREAT for that::  ::im going to the beach in less than a week::  ::my boyfriend is leaving for a month so when he comes back i want to be too thin just for him::

2)because i have work today so i can avoid dinner

im sooo excited!! today im getting some addy!!!!! XD sooo ill have ass loads of energy, and absolutely no appetite!!! 
im getting 25 so thats abbbouuut a whole month. so ill be small for boi when he comes home and i wont even have tried

im also gonna look into getting blow today haha. i wanna try it.

im having a good day